Holy Shiz!!!

Okay, so let me catch yall up real quick. So I found Dorain on a Sunday afternoon, we started getting to know eachother, talking everyday, just asking questions and stuff. So by Wednesday I started to feel like my head was in a vise! There was so much emotion and so much information coming in and going out, I was on total overload. I told Dorain that I was feeling this way so we both kind of backed off for a day while everthing sunk in. I thought I had opened a can of worms that couldn't be shut. The thought in my head was, "HOLY SHIZ, WHAT HAVE I DONE?"

So, after I let all the information and emotion sink in, I realized how cool the situation I was in was. I had an opportuity to meet and get to know someone that had such a vital role in my life. She carried me for nine months and gave me a life that has turned me into the person I am today. So, we've been getting to know eachother over facebook. I am too scared to actually talk to her on the phone yet, but hopefully I will get over that soon. It is so crazy how much we have in common! Similar music tastes, similar views on life, and our personalities are a lot alike. She was telling me that she is kind of an introvert and she thinks that I am super outgoing from the looks of my pictures. I had to tell her that I'm actually a lot more shy than she thinks. I mean I am really outgoing with my friends and people that I know, but when it comes to getting to know new people, it takes me awhile to trust them and be myself around them.

Over the next week or so we continued to get to know eachother and Dorain had told me that she was going to hire a P.I. to help us find Sean, my birth father. I was a little nervous at first because my parents had always told me that they didn't know about him at all, so I just kind of figured he was kind of a dead beat. I realize now that always thinking that was pre-judging, but it's what I thought. So, last Wednesday night, I was bowling with my friends from work when I got a text from Dorain. It said, "Ellie guess what, I found your dad! Well you already have a dad, so your birth father." I was so taken by surprise so I was nervous and excited at the same time. Dorain had been saying the whole time how much I look like him, that I have his nose, smile, and height. This made me really excited to see what he looked like and put both of their pictures on either side of me to see where I got what from. I probably bowled the worst game of my life because I was so anxious to get home and see what he looked like. Dorain told me that he had added me as a friend on facebook. As soon as I got home I looked him up on my computer. Wow, I am a perfect mix of both of them! HOLY SHIZ!!!